"Chin up"

I'm going to Mexico.
I'm forgetting all the stupidstupidstupid things I've done.
I'm leaving my problems behind.
I'm not looking back.
I'm never going to feel like this again.
I'm going to be happy.

Puerto Vallarta... fix me please.

-SAM

Someone fix me please.

There's something kind of magical about 3am. I remember over the summer I would stay up all night wandering aimlessly around the internet. Becoming inspired or thought-provoked by simple things. I have come to despise social networking. Which if you knew me less than a year ago you would know that the internet is my favorite place to be. But I have become bothered not only by the petty and meaningless problems that everyone else shares, but also by my own.

I ANNOY myself.

Like, it's one thing to be embarrassed by something you did and said, like most shy people are. But I am genuinely annoyed by my thoughts and the way I shove my problems onto everyone else. I have no clue how to deal with my problems so instead of mulling them over for a while I do whatever I instantly can to figure out how to fix things. FIXING THINGS. I have no purpose to my life if I feel like I'm not FIXING something. If something is not working I have to FIX it and make it BETTER. I have to MAKE it work.

Again, with the things out of my control. Putting my nose into everyone else's business.

It's so ANNOYING. I stopped complaining a while back about what other people were doing. I am the only person that can make me miserable. I am the only person that can make me sad. I am the only person that can make me happy. So maybe instead of fixing everything else: I should just fix myself?

-SAM

Weak things become Strong

It's one thing to be mad at other people, but I think that being upset with yourself is a whole new level of unhappiness. I am not in any way shape or form saying that I am a humble and kind-hearted person, because I definitely am not; however, I think my biggest problem that I face is blaming myself for things that are out of my control. Things that I could easily be mad at others for I tend to kill myself for. In most personalities, I believe that it's easier to see your own flaws than the flaws of others. But sometimes, forgiving yourself is one of the hardest things to do.
I am so very, very grateful to Anela for reminding me of my "Scripture of the Year" (The Book of Mormon) that I chose for myself to use as a guide.

ETHER 12:27

And if men come unto me 

I will show unto them their weakness. 

I give unto men weakness that they may be humble; 

and my grace is sufficient for all men that humble themselves before me; 

for if they humble themselves before me, 

and have faith in me,

then will I make weak things become strong unto them.

So yes. I am going to get "down". I am no where near perfect. I don't even have perfect faith most of the time. But I do have a perfect knowledge that weak things will become strong when I come unto Christ. I am not happy with myself, but at the very least I can try my best to be a better person with the help of the Lord. I have made plenty of terrible decisions in my life. Doesn't mean I have to be unhappy forever.

-SAM

Here's to

Pointless internet-surfing
Water
Radiohead
Dedication
Rain
Friendship
Loyalty
True love
Chocolate Peanut Butter Malt Balls
Being a teenager
Prayer
Teachers
Good health
Radiohead
Down-feather blankets
Clothes
A job
Family
and Radiohead.

-SAM

Hi friends!

lololol

Who's that?

I know that it's been so long since I've updated my blog that ya'll are looking at your dashboards and wondering who the heck I am.

In other news, I had a great Christmas. Seriously. My friends and family are the best in the world. I can't wait to hit the slopes though!

...that is, if it snows. -____-

-SAM

I wish someone would make me a pie.

That would make me a happy girl.

-SAM

This is madness.

I have so much going on this week. I think I'm going to lose my mind.

The thing that would probably make me happiest would be to make a pie. But...

I don't have time.
For anything.
I don't have time to do my hair.
Or speak proper sentences.
I get most of my sleep covered during health,
and math.

Whatever.

-SAM

I said yes! (DOS)

Somebody by the name of Sam got asked to Homecoming by the coolest person on the planet.

I went into math, and about 5-10 minutes through the class, my teacher flips up the projector screen and BOOM. There it was! It was very sweet, and I was not expecting it. I have yet to "answer" him. I shall let you all know how that goes shortly. :)

But anyways. I already have my dress and everything ready. (Of course.) Now we just have to wait til next Saturday!

And speaking of Homecoming, I got nominated as the Junior Homecoming Princess!

DEFINITELY not expecting that one. We'll see if I actually make it to the "finals". I think this whole thing is kinda silly to be honest. But God knows I love the attention. I love all my funny friends that nominated me. So yeah. Cameron is thee coolest ever. I don't know what I would do without him.

-SAM

Just a bit dramatic.

Remember when I was all like,

"THAT WAS THE POOPIEST AUDITION EVER."

Turns out, I did a lot better than I thought.
In fact, you are now reading the blog of the newest member of the Caleb Chapman Ska band- Lo-Fi Riot!
I'm so excited to get going and meet everyone in the band and AHHHH! It is all very exciting to me. As a part of being in the group, I also get the opportunity to tour Mexico in March of 2012. I am so ridiculously excited. Now I just need a job....
(Easier said than done.)

Well. Yep. Life is good. I am no longer stressed. Jazz band is the bomb. Amen.

-SAM 

Sometimes I say dumb stuff.

The end.

-SAM

Stress is GREAT. *sarcasm

I had auditions on Saturday for a jazz group that I've wanted to be in for such a long time. And last Spring I was like
"HECK YES!!! LET'S DO THIS!"
And then last Friday I was like
"Maybe if I lick all the doorknobs at school, I'll be too sick to go try-out..."

sigh.

So now I'm sitting on the computer. Telling you all that I did, indeed, suck.

-SAM

Oh my.

You can definitely thank Cameron for that last post.

But um, I swear I swear that I have not forgotten you, my few followers. I've just been busy. With concerts. And camping. And family vacations. I shall tell you all about each my adventures as soon as I return from one of the greatest cities, SAN FRANSISCO, next week.

Meanwhile, enjoy these beautiful pictures.

Oh man. You have no idea how excited I am to see this up close and PERSONAL.

Hugs and Kisses
-SAM

Hey Thur,

Coughsamlikespoopcough.

The End.

Sincerely,
It's A Secret.

BLAHHHH

Emotions are du-humb.

 San Francisco- you are so close! Two weeks!

AHHHH!

-SAM

Dear Utah:

You're too dang hot. Remember when you were cold? And it was awesome because I got to wear my hoodies and my beanies and my skinny jeans...? You know how I much I love that. And now look. LOOK AT THIS... THIS MESS. You've destroyed it all. Now I'm
SWEATY
and
HOT
and
STINKY
and I feel like poop.

Let's not do this anymore.
Thanks.

-SAM

Concert #1

Well, we're going to pretend it's #1 at least, because I refuse to admit that my first concert was David Archuleta and Brad Paisley.

Anyways, we went to see The Decemberists

 and Typhoon

which were both, amazing. Here's a pic of The Decemberists on stage, before things got crazy...

As you can see, we were just a few people from the front. We were close enough to see their beards! :D

And in case you were wondering who I keep referring to as "we", I went with Gavin, Hailee, and Cameron. We had fun. Except I'm a little disappointed now because listening to them recorded isn't as good anymore. Because they were AMAZING live. AH. It was all so good. The music was great. My friends were great. Life is great. Yeah.

Next Thursday- EDWARD SHARPE AND THE MAGNETIC ZEROS!

...I'm a little excited. :)

-SAM

Aww yeah.

Get a load of this geniusness. Jaco Pastorius, ladies and gentlemen. The all-time greatest bass player, if you ask me. I'm trying to learn this solo.

CHECK IT.



-SAM

Guitar?

I've been in love with guitar lately.

And in case you didn't know- I SUCK at guitar. Bass, I pretty much kick butt. But guitar... makes me want to cry. But I've been practicing, and I'm getting pretty dece. (That's Hip for "decent".)

For Girls Camp I'm writing a few songs, and I have had a surprising amount of success in doing so. When they are completed, I'll be sure to upload videos! But, yeah. Doin' pretty good. Fo sho. Alrighty. K.

Yeah and I... love this picture

Like, a lot.

So how is your summer? Good, I'm suspecting? Cool beans. Keep it up, yo.

-SAM

Well this is different.

Let's reminisce. Remember June? TWENTY-ONE POSTS. To seven? I'm pathetic, I know. But I have an explanation! I've just had a lot on my mind, so it's been hard to post something random AND that makes a bit of sense. So. Here we go.

HARRY POTTER = TRUE LOVE

I CRIED. Okay, well, maybe crying isn't the best explanation for what I was doing. I was pretty much bawling and shaking and laughing and screaming all at the same time. You could almost say the the movie was horrendously good. (Horrendously good.... I think I'm puttin' that on Urban Dictionary...) But seriously. Even if you think Harry Potter is "just alright", go see it. You will die.

Of happiness.

And another thing- Go do something that will make you happy today. Blow a balloon and draw a face on it. Make a fort in your living room. Put some food coloring in your soap and take a bubble bath. Make some chocolate milk and drink it with a straw. Go find a tree and take a nap underneath. Visit your friend or neighbor and bring them a gift- just because. There are too many opportunities to do something that will make you feel better about yourself to not take advantage of them.

Wow. Today is good I guess... :)

-SAM