I am so very, very grateful to Anela for reminding me of my "Scripture of the Year" (The Book of Mormon) that I chose for myself to use as a guide.
I will show unto them their weakness.
I give unto men weakness that they may be humble;
and my grace is sufficient for all men that humble themselves before me;
for if they humble themselves before me,
and have faith in me,
So yes. I am going to get "down". I am no where near perfect. I don't even have perfect faith most of the time. But I do have a perfect knowledge that weak things will become strong when I come unto Christ. I am not happy with myself, but at the very least I can try my best to be a better person with the help of the Lord. I have made plenty of terrible decisions in my life. Doesn't mean I have to be unhappy forever.